Yes. I am sixteen. Which means a lot of things, like i’m one year older, and i hope one year wiser. But i doubt so. I learnt more, i guess i did, but i also learnt that there are more to be learnt. There are some areas which i haven’t improve, might have deprove. I’m still pretty much very flawed, and have come to accept it less. I dislike flaws too much to work on them, got to work on them. Like what friends said, i can’t take criticism. Got to work on that.
Another point is that i can’t get myself motivated. And i do not have self discipline to work through lack of motivation. I am not capable of seeing how studying is good even though i know i should. I’ll just say, “Look that is not me. Maybe i’m not responsible. But to my, my priorities are different. I’m a ‘i want to contribute to this world’ person, but not by studying. I rather do it by chatting to people, cheering them up here and there. And besides i can do other stuffs like read up about philosophy and psychology and i would do them WILLINGLY. So why must i study. Screw the education system.” Alright, nagging, but yeah goddamnnit huanhock go mug for your eoys! Come on! A genius’ mind is wasted by idleness!
These two are pretty much what i got to work on. How i can start something but can’t see them through (like being enthu at the start of the year, but well, it dies out and like how i am determined to change myself but i get too into myself sometimes). Goddamnnit i want to be a confucius/kant/monk and just work on my flaws.
Alright but it’s more to that than that.
Here’s a BIG THANK YOU to those who made my birthday this year so enjoyable. Honestly, WTF! Three days of celebration for this dumbslackerjokerlamerhappycheerfuljokesterwhoisasageindisguise. Honestly. Thanks yikang, mao, changcheng, wenjun, dom, brandon, merv, davin omg gofish is brainkiller but we must play again! Thanks 4R PEOPLE omg the card was epic i love all your notes! Thanks mish. Thanks nic eu, tat, miin (who is borned one day earlier than me!), zann姐姐,sherm(the bullied who is now fighting back against me), ernxu and kuan (who both weren’t there but was there in spirit, could feel them there. And the smoke and muscles) HILLARY FOREVER!. Thanks to all those wellwishers (who wished me good luck, all the best; in this and that and EOYS! I need the luck!) And thanks to everyone who, well, by just being alive. I mean, to those card designers who designed the card and to the factory workers who made those cards and to the delivery people who brought it to singapore/shop to those who bought the other cards and not my card and to the cashier and to the people who did the pens which my friends had to write in the card with. To everyone for being part of the ocean. Oops ok i got carried away.
Four Personal Victories. One event. SAFRA Quadthlon.
We won third and we were the youngest team. Youth’s Open Relay category is from 16 to 21 and we won third. Goddamnnit we were so bloody close. Thanks to mish who thrashed out the start in the filthy East Coast Park sea for us, who swam in the choppy waters, with about a few hundred others. Who had to stand the legs kicking from the front, the hands grabbing from the back, drink the salty dirty disgusting water, and basically, pushed like crap. Who trained hardcorely before despite an injured arm. Thanks.
Thanks to kuan for just being you. Honestly i have no idea what to say cause you are SO KUAN.
Thanks to zann who was so obviously not herself, not the hyperself at least. Whom was just so concentrating on the event itself. Dood, chillax. Thanks for pushing so hard till you were so out of breathe, and pushed anyway. Thanks for being there fighting the last section out knowing that everything depended on you, and for coming through.
Thanks, ZKMH.
We’ll probably be joining when we’re 17, 19, 20, 21. Might skip for the As.
I mean, since we won third when we’re the youngest, and like me and zann we didn’t really train, if the whole team did, what will we get. It’ll be freebies, dimwits. Eat that.
(Oh i love roxanne.)
Roxanne. I’m sorry that i pwned you badly. I’m not very good at being gentle. But i do love you. You know, i’ll stay with you forever. Even if you grow old and wrinkly, i’ll still be with you. Sure, i might get a younger hotter chick when you’re older, but you know that you’ll always be my first. And i’ll surely keep you with me, and pamper you. There’ll be this special spot in my heart JUST for you to keep you there. Cause we’re BOOMZ like that.
ZKMH.
I don’t know what else there is to say. Blogging is sap time, but it makes me feel good. Gosh, one less excuse to notbstart mugging now.
